puzzle
very odd...
nothing fits
puzzle pieces
intentionally twisted
placed on a board
upside down
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My dad... before I was born... The song you are hearing if you have your click play is by my friend Don Rudnickas. It is a testimonial of love and respect for his father.
For all of us that have lost our fathers I think that the memories this beautiful song evokes actually does give us one more and many more times shared with them as we listen.

Do you ever start a search for some odd something or other and get so absorbed in the other things you have discovered in that old box that you quite forget what it was you were looking for in the first place.
I found this while looking for something else. 1993, the Opening of the first film I worked on. Mr. Write. My 'date' you may recognize from David Letterman shows from the 80's & 90's. Calvert DeForest aka Larry Bud Melman. He has a quirky little part in the movie.
One of the wonderful aspects of celebrating a New Year is the sense of getting a Second Chance... Everything is fresh and new again and we have a sense of being freed from the negative and look to the positive. I wish you all many days filled with laughter and joy and the opportunity to start anew things left undone and the spirit to try again.
Last year I replaced all the windows in my house with those expensive, double-pane energy-efficient kind.
Yesterday, I got a call from the Contractor who installed them. He was complaining that the windows had been installed a whole year ago and I had not paid for them yet.
Hellloooo? Now just because I'm blonde doesn't mean that I am automatically stupid. So I told him just exactly what his fast-talking sales guy had told ME last year... namely, that in just ONE YEAR these windows would pay for themselves!
"Helllooooo!"------"It's been a year"!
There was only silence at the other end of the line, so I finally just hung up.... He hasn't called back, probably too embarrassed about forgetting the guarantee they made me.
Bet he won't underestimate a blonde anymore!

Two of my sisters... one younger one older...
(repost)
Yesterday I went to the French Quarter Fest and I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to listen to music. I don't typically listen to Zydeco, arguably the music of Louisiana. One would think it would be something I was drawn to on a visceral level at least. My mother's family names are all Boudreaux's and Gautreaux's and Dideareaux and who knows what else that ends in eaux.
I can remember visits to my maternal grandmother's and great-grandmother's where the adults would gather after the evening rosary to play boure (I have no idea how to spell bourée; I don't think I have ever seen it written). Once released from the torture of kneeling in a circle on the kitchen floor saying the rosary to the radio we kids would pass our rosaries over to the nearest adult and high tail it for the backyard to play some version of chase through the fig orchards. The men would drink beer and the women home made cherry bounce and together as a family they made fun on a hot summer night.
As the evening progressed our dashes in and out of the kitchen always had a very distinct sound that I can hear even now. It is the combination of French being spoken in rapid fire tempo against music warbling forth from a scratchy 78 album blended with that of the occasional swat at a mosquito and infused with laughter, great deals of laughter, which all together created its own music.
What they listened to on the record player or radio or played themselves when one of the Oncle's would bring a fiddle and another an accordion or any other combination of instruments didn't seem to have a name, or at least they didn't name it. Someone would shout, "Oncle Celeste! Jouez-nous de la musique!" Just that, not play some Zydeco or Cajun Music it was just music. It is interesting that they didn't have a name for it when you think about our how humans seem to have a need to name a thing. Or perhaps they did and said it in French which we tuned out because we weren't supposed to understand what they were talking about when they slipped into French.
What I loved was the sound of Family, not so much the music itself. It isn't that I don't like it now, I can enjoy it but it isn't the same. I suppose for me it is a family sound that is best enjoyed on a hot summer night with fans whirring overhead and the sounds and smells of my grand grand-mere's kitchen and when I hear it elsewhere I feel lonely for the sounds I won't ever hear again.
Those simple days are gone. I don't ever see all the Tante's and Oncle's anymore. My grand-mere is gone as is my grand grand-mere and my mother too and the links to that side of the family grow weaker with each passing year. None of us live in houses with big screened in back porches and even bigger kitchens where 20 people could sit around a table and drink cherry bounce and play cards on a hot summer evening and create the magic of childhood for all of us kids. And none of us are kids anymore. I miss it and the music that was my childhood. And that is what I remembered last night when I went to bed with the sounds of Zydeco still whispering in my mind. I remembered I wasn't a kid anymore.
p.s.
After writing the above by sheer fluke of fate two of my cousins walked into the same bar/resturant I was in. Since then the family has all gotten together again. The adults, of whom now I was one, sat around talking into the evening. Laughter was everywhere and the kids ran in and out, music played in the background... and I wondered if we were making the music of childhood for the little ones.
This is from when I was doing theatre in New York....
The Play - Lion in Winter by James Goldman
One amusing aspect - My Henry II was 6'5", I am 5'1.5". For this cast picture I had to stand on a box so that we would be on a somewhat even plane for the promotional cast Photographs.

"Surround Me" by Chris Sotiri
I am not sure how things happen nor can I explain them... be that as it may this man's music came into my world. The how isn't important... But the first song I listened to "Surround Me" exposed, expressed and exhaled how I feel.
More of his music can be found
Lyrics
Wash away this life, put it all behind
Won't take anymore, this tired soul can't fight
I am not afraid, to leave everything
There's a world, where I won't be in pain
Surround Me, Surround Me
I've lost what I need
Surround Me, Surround Me
My heart was torn away, ever since that day,
Never will forget, one fateful mistake
Visions of the end, play back time again
There's a place, where I won't feel a thing
Surround Me, Surround Me
I've lost what I need
Surround Me, Surround Me
How can one live, just suffering,
How can one live, so helplessly,
How do you live??
Surround Me, Surround Me
I've lost what I need
Surround Me, Surround Me
Surround Me, Surround Me
I found I'll never be
Surround Me